Living in town sucks.

Ok, I figure out that I hate living in town, and now can't wait until the kids move out, so we can do the road trip and never be home.  Ok, in some cases it's not bad, but the whole making sure the lawn is mowed and have a deadline to do it is stupid.  This time we had a week to clean the yard and mow the yard, but it's during a heat wave.  I was beginning to think the code enforcer, is part of the plan to kill some of us.  To give out paper saying we have a week to clean outside, during 100 degree weather with the heat index of 112.  With news stations staying "Heat Advisory" and everyone stay indoors. If it's not done, we get fine.  What a wonderful time living in town.

Affirmation

Zodiac

Just searching the web, mostly cause I can't sleep. So I found a website about "Hippy" (not that I don't believe in Hippies, I just call them free spirits.  Just like me.)   So there was an article about Native American Zodiac, I know about Astrology, I really didn't know there were different types of zodiac signs. So I'm doing some research.

 I was born on November 1, 1982.

Native American 

Snake: Oct 23 – Nov 22

A highly spiritual Native American animal symbol, Snakes are very in tune with matters of the heart and inner enlightenment, making them natural spiritual leaders. Snakes are also known for their amazing healing capacities, enabling them to excel at any medical profession. The philosophical insight of the Snake can be somewhat intimidating to others, and this sign is sometimes viewed as mysterious or even frightening. Don’t let this put you down, however, as the Snakes fifth sense makes them quite unique, insightful, and deep. Although the Snake can be secretive and a bit dark, he/she is also sensitive and compassionate. The Snake can be cool, inspiring, and helpful, but also sometimes violent and prone to abnormal mood swings.

I know I'm a Scorpio, that the one everyone knows.

Scorpio in a Nutshell:

Scorpio is the astrology sign of extremes and intensity. Scorpios are very deep, intense people, there is always more then meets the eye. They present a cool, detached and unemotional air to the world yet lying underneath is tremendous power, extreme strength, intense passion and a strong will and a persistent drive. Scorpios have a very penetrative mind, do not be surprised if they ask questions, they are trying to delve deeper and figure things out and survey the situation. They always want to know why, where and any other possible detail they can possibly know. Scorpio's are very weary of the games that other people try to play and they are very aware of it. Scorpios tend to dominate and control anyone that lets them, or anyone that they find weak. The person that a Scorpio respects and holds close to them is treated with amazing kindness, loyalty and generosity. On the outside, a Scorpio has great secretiveness and mystery. This magnetically draws people to them. They are known to be controlling and too ambitious but only because they need control for this makes them feel safe.

Mayan Astrology: Grass

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Grass Characteristics: Alternative Name: Road Direction: South Gemstone: Malachite Color: Yellow Mayan Name: Eb Significance: Resolution Friend: Reed Foe: Wind Grass Personality: You are Grass (or Road), the twelfth Day Sign of Mayan astrology. You are very adaptable, cooperative, and ready to lend a hand to those in need. However, expressing your feelings can be hard for you, so you tend to keep them inside. You may take a while to start working on a project or toward a goal, but once you get the ball rolling, you work hard to achieve it. You live life on your own schedule and terms. Some of your greatest strengths are your caring, nurturing personality and your ability to keep your emotions in check. Regular self-improvement is an important thing for you, and you're an expert problem-solver who others admire. Grass Keywords: Strengths: Rigorous, Adaptable, Regardful Weaknesses: Reserved, Introverted

Astrology, Scorpio   http://zodiac-signs-astrology.com/zodiac-signs/scorpio.htm
Aztec sign   http://www.horoscope.com/horoscope/mayan/mayan-profile.aspx?sign=12
Native American Zodiac.  http://hippybloggers.com/native-american-zodiac-signs-mean/

Pictures

"Scorpio" by Josephine Wall  

“Egyptian Girl with Snakes” by Frances Bramley Warren

Some of my favorite plants.

Rainbow Hibiscus

I want some of these.

Wisteria Tree In Japan

Brrrr

It freaking cold here.  Here is what the weather channel app. says.... 

Wow, that's cold!!!  And in this house it's 40 degrees!! That's with 2 heater in the same room.  I'm going to talk about the rest of the house.  Let just say it's freaking cold!!!

Upset or PI$$ED

In November I wrote a post about how an "phone background/tone sharing site" took one of my pic away due to reason, blah blah blah. Here's the pic...

             


Well I had the other pic on there. Just to make sure my pics got out there to the world. So now I have an another email about the other pic. The other side of this pic, it being reported. The only thing I can think of is that, make they think I didn't take the picture. But I did, I did when I was homeless and living at the river. So I'm Pissed at this. How an the world am I supposed to get my pic's out if they keep getting reported.

Well it's winter!!

It's so COLD!!!! The other night we had 3 degree temps. and been rising alittle since, like 12 degrees then 15 degrees at night.  last night it was 21 degrees. Been beacated in the living room with the heaters, the rest of the house has been but off with blankets on the doors and windows. But I did get the living room around 55 - 60 degrees at night in here. So it's not that bad.

During this time the water in the pips are frozen.  I know the other night it was going to friz and we left the water dripping. but it still froze. OK, so a pipe broke. and we called the landlord and he called someone to come out that night and that guy used a whole roll of electrical tape to stop the leak. So ok, we have water kinda.  Then we went ahead and turn the water off outside to make sure it didn't leak during the night.  The next morning, we turned the water back on for the water that was left in the pips are frozen. The only water that comes in the house is in the toilet. So we haven't had water in the sinks or shower for 3 days. It's so much fun living in a crappy house.


~~~~~~GOOD NEWS!!!!~~~~~~~~~

We're working on getting out of here and in to our own house!!!  The timeline looks to be march when we move out of here and into something better!!!

Weeping willow

I had the on another blog that not doing anything so I'm closing that one and putting everything on this one.

I made this out of yarn and a broken Embroidery loop.  I hung it up on my wall.

2015 Song!!!!

I pick this song, because is makes me feel good, smile and think I can do anything.  "Just Do You" by India Arie.       

Lyrics to Just Do You 

 

 I heard a voice that told me I'm essential
That all my fears are limiting my potential
Said it's time to step into the light and
Use every bit of the power I have inside

So what'chu waiting on
Who You waiting for
If You don't take a chance You'll never know whats in store

Just Do You (Somebody's got to be Your star)
Just Do You (Somebody's got to raise the bar)
Just Do You (Somebody's got to change the game)
Just Do You (Today)

Every mountain needs someone to climb it
Every ocean needs someone to dive in
Every dream needs someone to wish it
Every adventure needs someone to live it

So what'chu waiting on
Who You waiting for
If You don't take a chance You'll never know whats in store

Just Do You (Somebody's got to be your star)
Just Do You (Somebody's got to raise the bar)
Just Do You (Somebody's got to change the game)
Just Do You (Today)

If You create the game then You create the rules
And if You just be You
There's no way You can lose

There's a story waiting for you to write it
There's a treasure waiting for you to find it
There's a picture waiting for you to paint it
There's a dollar waiting for you to make it

So what'chu waiting on
Who You waiting for
If You don't take a chance You'll never know whats in store

Just Do You (Somebody's got to be your star)
Just Do You (Somebody's got to raise the bar)
Just Do You (Somebody's got to change the game)
Just Do You (Today)

If You create the game then You create the rules
And if You just be You
There's no way You can lose

[ These are Just Do You Lyrics on http://www.lyricsmania.com/ ]

2015 NOT reslution but Goals.

This year I'm not going to do the usual about "I"m going to do this...." crap I've done in the past. I'm going to do the "I'm going to WORK on..."  I think a Life style change is in order. I want and need a healthy life.

I know I want....

Meditation everyday
Drink more water (everyday)
Walk more
Deal with my emotion better
Get with Mother Nature more.
saving money
Selling my creation (same goal every year, but something always happens.)


I'm thinking about starting slow on ONE item at a time for a month.
Meditation, before bed, even for a few minutes.
Drinking more water. start out by on bottle a day for a week, then 2 the next week.
Walking further away from the stores.

Word or Words for 2015

I have two words this year.

Self-Care (something that everyone harps on me about, I do things for others and not myself.) I shouldn't feel guilty for taking a simple shower. I feel like that cause, I'm taken time away from my family and housework. I should feel bad, for having a bad day or a bad moment. This year I should do one thing a week that if for ME. Rather it is to paint my nails or have time to myself. And NOT feel guilty for taking a shower.

Brave (I graduate collage in 2015!! Need to be brave to go out and get that job I want.) I'm scare of rejection and failure. I really never had a job other then housewife. And that will change this year. I know I want a job that will further my goal into owning my own business. 

People with PTSD

People with PTSD, shouldn't be abandon, while their are healing, they need to be listen to, cared for and know that someone is there.

We as a people should know this, but today, a good friend of mine was kick out and block from a group that was helping her deal with her trouble past. And no one will tell her what she did wrong.

She was added to the group in Mid November of this year. So she was only there for a month,  She decided to become an admin to the group on Monday, cause one of her faults that that she scared to help people, but likes to help people And when she got up this morning, (Wednesday) She was kick out of both. She know she feels abandoned and alone.  She's been abandoned her whole life, so this is a step back for her.

I'm writing this, cause I am mad, I have seen her grow to love herself and be someone she wants to be. And in the last month she was so excited that she found people who had some of the same experience and that she could talk to, and now this. How dare they do this. It makes me wonder who all that done this to.

MY kids are angels.

And the reason why I say that is the other night. At my son second appointment of that day, after having a day of appointments. First with my son at the neurologist in a town 45 mins. away from home, then my hubby in a town 30 way from home, and then my son again in home town. At least the appt. times where spaced out there I can get to all of them. And on my way home pick up a friend so I can take her shopping, she needed some stuff, and it was on the way. But It was a long day driving. So at my son second appointment and the last one of that day. I was tired. So while he was in there talking to his therapist, my friend is an aunt to him went in there with him so, I decided to close my eyes and JUST sit there. Yeah Right, what made me think I can get away with that. 

There was this, I'll say 5 maybe 4 year old paying, and he was good and quiet for a while then it started....

It started out him telling his mom he was thirsty, then demanding a drink - hot cocoa. She didn't get up and he asked for what she was drinking, She said, coffee, she says no, cause he would bounce of the wall. Then he pester her until she gave in "one" drink... 5 or so drinks later, he was drinking it and she was just telling him to stop put it down, after every drink he took. Ok, then she proceeded to get up and see if there was any hot cocoa. In the office we have a one cup coffee, tea, hot cocoa, machine, Hot cocoa is a seasonal item, and sometimes it's just not there, due to that fact we're in a children clinic. So...

 There wasn't, so she made him coffee cause he didn't want tea. I mean really there is water and tea. But he said no. Who the hell is the parent here?


So sad say, I didn't get to shut my eyes until they left. and because I couldn't get my nap, I type this out on my phone, while it was happening.  And when my son came out. I thanked him for not being a rude little boy he could have been. 

Warning: Personal Opinion!!

Warming: Personal Opinion

I thank people need to keep the anger and hate toward other people holiday stuff to them self.  I see, all over Facebook about how WE need to keep christ in christmas. But what about the people who don't celebrate christmas. There are a lot of people who celebrate other holidays that has to do with their religion. There are

Kwanzaa, Hanukkah, Yule and some others I have no clue on. So why should we make them say Merry Christmas, if they don't celebrate it.  Would it be right if they made the christian say Happy Hanukkah, or Merry Yule? So why are people pushing the "Merry Christmas"  WHEN it should be what ever you want to say, if you want to say Merry Christmas to anybody without them getting offended. I want to be able to say Merry Yule to anybody I cross. It all means to the same thing. Have a Happy Holiday. It would be easier if no one would get upset over the words.

To be Upset or Not....

That is the question.....

On some "phone background/tone sharing site" I uploaded backgrounds to share with the world.  ANY picture I put up is ones I take with MY camera or phone. So I put up this one....

 Ok not much, just a pic of the river I lived net to for a while. I got a email telling me it was reported for some reason, and doesn't tell me one.  What the hell?!? I mean, they have everything on there from nude and anything religious. And I get a letter about this. A picture of a River.


OK, two days later I get email back, saying that ""phone background/tone sharing site" Siteguards have, by multiple votes, decided that content you have uploaded may be inappropriate for distribution on "phone background/tone sharing site". However, it's still stored as "private" in "My Account >"  and there reason they gave me could be any of these on the list.

Possible reasons:
Bad quality (pixelated, unsharp etc.)
Not of public interest (Family photos etc.)
Incorrect naming / tagging
Incorrect screen shots (Themes)

 I did put another picture up 

On the Same Day!!

















No problem with it and here's the kicker.  They are from the same pic.

 

So I'm a little confused, and upset.